The Dark Night Of The Soul

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The dark night of the soul refers to a period of an individuals spiritual journey that is said to be less than enjoyable, to say the least.  It usually occurs following a period of spiritual growth.  As you discover certain truths there is a death or dying of sorts of your previously held beliefs which have helped to create your ego.

It has been my experience that almost immediately following a time of growth, the mind turns in on itself and throws a blanket over the ego which is definitely troubled by these new concepts that are forcing  it to the surface or more realistically, separating it from the self.  The ego doesn’t like this and as a result you can become withdrawn, moody, irritable, depressed and generally feel grey.

Worse is that you still have the knowledge gained from the period of growth which all pointed to happiness, love and compassion.  Now as you wallow in this dark night it seems that all this knowledge has up and left.  Remember that this is the ego attempting to comfort itself.  You have chased it out of one room and it’s now hiding in the next.  The ego needs to feel that it is vital to your existence and it will try anything to keep you believing that.

Early in your spiritual awakening you will have left behind concrete ideas in place of concepts.  These concepts are initially far from concrete, so you are left in a state of limbo.  I prefer to recognise this period as more of a cocoon period.  Each time the dark night of the soul visits, try to recognise that it is just another period of growth in itself.  You will emerge from it and you will have been transformed by it.

Resist Resisting

It isn’t easy.  It can feel so frustrating.  You are not alone.  Allow it to happen, don’t resist.  Use this time to put what you have learned to the test.  Practise calm and patience.  Work on your meditation.  Ask for help too.  Say out loud what you would like help with.  It is sometimes surprising to find that the universe does hear you.  Sometimes you will have your answer immediately, it can happen.


Energy, Kundalini, Evolution.




Language is often a clumsy a vehicle when attempting to transport information relating to concepts that are experienced by an individual who would like to share those concepts .  I will do my best to share what I have discovered thus far and hope that this is of some use to anybody who is interested.

Several years ago I began to explore beyond the confines of my own understanding of the universe.  I removed all mass media, radio, TV, newspapers, magazines, all of it.  Later I would remove social media, facebook etc.  I removed addictions, smoking, coffee, pornography, sugar.  I reformed my diet, I tried primal, vegetarian, and the like. This continues to be an organic evolution.  I spent several months dedicating myself to the persuit of fitness in order to achieve a personal goal.  Through this goal I learned what it is to be completely focused, driven, scared of failure.  Fear is a hell of a motivator.

This Moment Is Perfect As It Is

It is said that nature abhors a vacuum.  With the removal of distraction and an understanding of channeling or of realising your destination being based on your choices alone, epiphanies can occur.  It’s like dominoes falling in reverse.  You get to see that, in order for your to arrive at ‘D’ then ‘C’, ‘B’ and ‘A’ all had to happen, in that order to get you where you are now and when this happens you get the “Aha!” moment and the ground goes a little shaky.  Big ones are really mind blowing.

Cognitive dissonance is a very great hurdle and is often the first and last for many people.  Constantly encourage yourself to live in a transformative state.  A state of constant change.  To do this, opt for a perspective of ‘Everything is new’  or ‘I know nothing’  It gives you the freedom to accept, to grow and to move.

Live in the moment.  Recognise where you are right now.  The past is not real, nor is the future.  Yourself from one minute ago is dead, not real anymore, doesn’t exist. The image of that past you is merely experience.   Practise saying ‘Stop’. And Later ‘Breath’  Use this space to activate all your available senses at this time.  Sight, smell, taste, touch, sound, soak up the moment.  There is never nothing going on!  Whenever anything gets ‘too much’ or you find yourself saying “Arrh, what was it that I had just come to realise?”  The answer is always ‘Breath’.

Listen to your emotions.  Anxiety or fear is often felt in the stomach, slightly above navel area.  Because we can associate this as unpleasant we don’t always listen to this feeling as we should.  These are the times that our energy or power chakra is wide open.  Ready for fight or flight.  This surplus energy is routed to heat, movement, becoming talkative you name it.  Instead of this, take a breath and visualise moving that energy from your stomach up towards your chest.  This is the heart chakra.  In time you will use times of stress as a bonus energy round for you to control and store.  The ability to see beyond our basic instincts and not react to them immediately is good evolution. Put that energy to good use.


Each chakra, especially the lower ones, are associated with a particular emotion or feeling.  When this is recognised you have a reference point to push and pull against  It becomes something tangible.


One of the most scary things can be being alone.  Truly alone with your own thoughts.  No phone, no TV, no nothing.  Sit by yourself, on your own, or lie down.  Turn your phone off and kick the cat out.  Do this every day.  Sit and listen to your emotions.  Allow your mind to swim.  Allow anything and everything to come and to go trough your mind.  Your mind will eventually calm down but don’t be surprised if it does not go quietly.  Meditate every day.  Be still and let your mind wander.  It will come back (more’s the pity sometimes) but in it’s place you will receive guides in abstract form, leading you somewhere.  You need only to follow.  Feel the energy in your body.  Any tension you have, adjust your body to facilitate it’s moving up and out the crown of your head.

The Kundalini 

This can be the beginnings of the kundalini experience.  What kundalini brings is something amazing.  It is a journey that will force out painful or forgotten emotions.  Energies that you have been spending on these emotions that were formed so long ago, that you have no need of now but cannot recognise them enough so that you may release them elsewhere.  This will happen in time.  Remember, no part of you is good or bad.  It is often the case that these emotions have been your protectors in the past and, from their perspective, they are still very much needed.  Your higher self is able to communicate with these parts or emotions as very real entities.  Look within during meditation if it goes that way.  Ask to speak to certain emotions.  With practise you will be amazed what you can do.

Kundalini refers to a very powerful energy within us.  This energy is often sapped by the mind by way of distraction, or by ourselves not being able to recognise the availability, possibly due to the influence of our environment or our education.

Kundalini is often depicted as an ‘intelligent’ energy in the form of a coiled snake at the base of the spine.  I have found that visualising and using the serpent as a reference for the sensation of this rising to be extremely helpful.  It can feel like a strong serpent working up your spine.  Almost a thick feeling.  Experiences though, are often as varied as the individual themselves.

It can be initially recognised in the form of sexual energy.  This energy is often released by the mind through orgasm.  The ability to see beyond our basic instincts and not react to them immediately is good evolution.

It could be argued that much of the western world is specifically designed to ensure that the general population does not realise their potential.  Most events portrayed by the media are very much directed to the areas affected by spiritual understanding and kundalini awakenings.  Do not allow yourself to become a victim.  Do not assume that you will not be affected simply by recognising what you experience.  You will be affected.   Use the internet how YOU see fit.  Beyond the confines of social media, pornography or mass market entertainment.  Your soul seeks fulfilment and only when you allow yourself to listen will the messages get through.


Each illness we receive is a message.  Notice how you may get a common illness, something ‘doing the rounds’ locally to you.  It  will effect people differently.  Initially it will be a common adversary like a cold but notice how you are affected.  It may linger on your throat as a cough, or a headache, or back pain.  This is a blockage.  Recognise it and try to understand the blockage in your own operating system as it were.  Each feeling or emotion is like feeling the blu-tack on the corner of the poster as you hang it on the wall.  You cannot see it but you know where to press.

The mind is a tool.  It is not you.  You will see that separation as you progress.  Use the mind though, do not hate it.  It will sort out the physical for you.  Your day to day.  It will run on autopilot, out of the way when you don’t need it.  Talk kindly to it as you should do yourself.  Love yourself always and that love will flow from you.

We are all in on a lesson of what it is to be separate.  Separate from everything.  If a separate being managed to see beyond that separateness, and come to realise that separate is the illusion, you have seen the game for what it is and can play it with a new set of rules.  A new perspective.

Enjoy the journey.



For further reading please check out the following sites: (Still under some construction but very informative) (The spiritual big picture) (Information with regards to being in the present) (A helpful interpretation of understandings and learning)