The Hero You Need
The dark night of the soul refers to a period of an individuals spiritual journey that is said to be less than enjoyable, to say the least. It usually occurs following a period of spiritual growth. As you discover certain truths there is a death or dying of sorts of your previously held beliefs which have helped to create your ego.
It has been my experience that almost immediately following a time of growth, the mind turns in on itself and throws a blanket over the ego which is definitely troubled by these new concepts that are forcing it to the surface or more realistically, separating it from the self. The ego doesn’t like this and as a result you can become withdrawn, moody, irritable, depressed and generally feel grey.
Worse is that you still have the knowledge gained from the period of growth which all pointed to happiness, love and compassion. Now as you wallow in this dark night it seems that all this knowledge has up and left. Remember that this is the ego attempting to comfort itself. You have chased it out of one room and it’s now hiding in the next. The ego needs to feel that it is vital to your existence and it will try anything to keep you believing that.
Early in your spiritual awakening you will have left behind concrete ideas in place of concepts. These concepts are initially far from concrete, so you are left in a state of limbo. I prefer to recognise this period as more of a cocoon period. Each time the dark night of the soul visits, try to recognise that it is just another period of growth in itself. You will emerge from it and you will have been transformed by it.
It isn’t easy. It can feel so frustrating. You are not alone. Allow it to happen, don’t resist. Use this time to put what you have learned to the test. Practise calm and patience. Work on your meditation. Ask for help too. Say out loud what you would like help with. It is sometimes surprising to find that the universe does hear you. Sometimes you will have your answer immediately, it can happen.